An Attempt at an Introduction

Who am I? I know it's not easy to blurt out an introduction and here's my attempt...

I am in my twenties, working in a business district. I consider myself bisexual but right now I have a relationship with a guy. I'm not good at relationships and my beau has considered leaving me probably about a hundred times already. You see, he's my first.

With my current relationship, I say words like 'forever' but I'm not entirely sure about it. I know...

For the purpose of discussion, let's call my guy 'Ocean.'

...Ocean does loves hearing me say that I'll be with him forever but he has enough sensibility to think that things may not be entirely smooth for the two of us 'til death do us part.

My height is a bit taller than average. I graduated from one of the top schools in the capital. I live in a decent middle class home. As with the trend with my generation, my family is broken. But we're happy.

And I intend this blog to be an outlet of things that Ocean would kill me for. Or maybe society would beat him to it.

This would be my first admission...

I was thinking of having sexual relations with the boyfriend of one of my close friends.

I've only met Razor once and I got his number through his boyfriend, which is one of my close friends. Or maybe until he identifies me through this blog.

Razor is quite shy but as most shy people are, he is quite talkative through SMS and through chat. We would talk about deep things and about relationships but recently, we were both getting naughty. At first I thought we were just flirting and joking but then Razor became really interested with having sex with me.

I did flirt a bit more, even teasing him to go to my house. He was tired at the time and there were some considerable distance between me and him so he invited me to go online.

I was very familiar with the online game as that was where I met Ocean. Anyway, I saw Razor through a webcam and I just sent pictures as I was quite good with words. Razor was in the mood and I was nursing an itch at the time.

We both got hard and released. It wasn't just like jacking off with a friend. I was adoring his body and he had it tight! Without flexing, it was already decent but with some, it made me hard.

Razor and I knew that we were both offending our current relationships but we considered doing this. It was his first time and it wasn't exactly mine.

I do enjoy Razor and we even planned to do it in my room but I know I wouldn't want Ocean to leave me. And at the same time I wouldn't want to see Razor break up with his.

I know I'm not confused. That's just the way I feel.